~In about 5 days, my fiance and I will be taking a trip back to my home state, Illinois. Our purpose is to introduce my loved ones to this new program we will be taking worldwide. It was created for everyone to succeed in life and I feel it can be a great help to the world. As a kid growing up, I always wanted to make a difference in the world, to change the world for the better and this program does just that. I certainly feel that God has partnered me with the most loving and caring partner in the world and together we will help as many people as we possibly can with this. Even if somehow my loved ones decide it is not for them, I cannot and will not allow that to discourage me as I know that progression and change happens at different levels for each individual. I know it can help them, but if they are not open to it and do not have a positive mindset then it will not be for them. I know I cannot force anyone to make positive changes in their lives, all I can do is try to point them in the right direction and always show them love. Regardless, it will be a wonderful trip to where I came from, it will also be the first time my fiance meets a large part of my family. Yesterday, my fiance and I found the perfect office space to launch it from here in Vegas. We are moving forward with getting this program up and going!
~I find myself becoming more serious about life in general as each day passes, I am also finding things a lot less humorous. Possibly because a large part of my childhood was filled with fake laughs to hide all the pain I held inside. I recently saw a film titled "Moonlight" which shows the life of a young African American man from childhood to adulthood. The movie reminded me of my life in many ways. He said he cried so much as a kid he thought he would turn into a tear and I was the same. He unfortunately had a mother who treated him badly while also being bullied and tormented by kids in school. I completely understand how much more it hurts being tormented by someone you love than a stranger. I felt like this film showed a modern version of the black community today and more films like this should be produced. Yes it is great to see films about our past, but our present situation must also be acknowledged, so we can work on fixing the things that must be fixed.
~I have now completely typed my book, it is formatted in a word document and I am moving forward with the editing. I will probably go back through it, reading for clarification and to structure it better first. This process is taking time, but regardless I know I cannot rush it. I will not set a release date for it because there are many uncertainties especially with editing and publishing. When the time comes, I will just release it to the world. It will be a real eye opener filled with much truth and many solutions.
May this year bring you much happiness, inner peace, and strength,